[A hero. Jon could laugh. He doesn't, just stares down at the coffee Tim had bought for him.] Every time I've tried to play hero, it's given Elias exactly what he wants, Tim. Forgive me, if I don't try to put myself out there anymore. I have no idea what's playing into his hands and what isn't.

Do you know what it's like to feel like you can't trust yourself to do anything? Because it might be what he wants? It might be giving some sociopath exactly what he wants. I'm trying, Tim. Not to be a hero. God, do you really think that's what I want? I'm not a hero. I can never be a hero. That's for people like you or Martin. People who are still people, not... this.

Do whatever you want. I won't stop you. But I can't help you with it, either.