[Jon gives him a look before sipping his coffee. He could pass it off as a joke it would be easy. Tim seems to want it to be, and that's half the trouble with a lie, isn't it? Unfortunately, Jon wasn't a creature of comforting falsehoods even before he'd become the Archivist.]

When I say I lost it, I lost it. I was paranoid, delusional. If it hadn't been exactly what Elias wanted, he'd have needed to fire me. Or have me committed. I thought Martin wanted to kill me.

[He'll circle back to Elias in a moment when Tim understands just how unhinged he'd been.]