Duplicity Inbox

[alwayskayaking]

Duplicity Inbox

You've reached Tim Stoker. I'm out at the moment. Leave me a message and I'll return your call soon.

Comments

cw: mentions of assault

[alwayskayaking]

Did you? I don't remember you asking that, but I didn't lie to you. She messed with my head before she took me to the beach because trust me I would have freaked out a lot sooner with being teleported somewhere if I had been in my right state of mind. [Except it wasn't her. It was the costume and the candy from that night. Not that Tim has thought about either of those things playing a part in this.] Although that's pretty bloody close to being assaulted if you ask me. All I remembering you asking was about that damn ship, if she was a lier, and if I was safe. [Where was all this coming from anyway? Actually, no, that is a very good question. He quickly follows his last text with that very question.]

What the hell brought this on anyway?

cw: mentions of assault

[compellingstatement]

[Jon is pretty sure he'd asked that. Implied it at the very least? He's angry and upset at himself, at Tim. This is just such a mess.]

Did she?
Do you want me to Look, Tim?
Do you really want me to Know if she really did that?
Because there are s̬͉̰͈o̩̲̣ ͎̰͎̪m̖̪̞̝̯͍̬a̫̙͖͎̞n̘̟̦̦̟̭̯y̪͖̳̣̤̩ t̠͙̖͈͈͉͠h҉̣̪̝̮̻̤ͅi̙̫̺n̵͉g̢s̞͕͓̦̖͕͚ ͈͉͈̞̜I̺̻͓̳͔̰ ̮̱̳̠̰c̶̯̮a̛̟̖n̗̬̩ K̶͔̺̰̙̹͞n͓̙͈̘̝̱͉̼͠o̟̫w̛̰͓͕̟͚͍̙̟͟.̘́

[alwayskayaking]

[Holy shi--]

Stay away from me. Don't you dare "look" at me! Don't think that what you use to be will stop me from protecting myself from what you are now if you come after me!

[compellingstatement]

[Jon can feel tears prickling at the edges of his vision now. Guilt and frustration are clawing at his insides. He wants to be angry, to feel be betrayed by Tim. But does he even have that right anymore?]

I'm not going to come after you, Tim.
Live your life.
I won't bother you again.

[alwayskayaking]

[Having no idea what has happened to cause this all Tim can think of is that Jon has lost his mind. Was this because he asked him to use his powers to check he was clean? Had he fully fallen to the beholding because of that? His stomach churns at the thought.]

If you hurt anyone I will find you. That's a promise to Jon. [Because that's why this happened, right? Jon is gone now? Jon wouldn't want a monster in his skin running around.]

[compellingstatement]

[Oh, Tim.]

I destroyed our world.
How much more hurt do you require?

[alwayskayaking]

Jon said Elias tricked him. Are you saying that a lie? Why are you trying to goad me into killing you?

[compellingstatement]

['Jon said.' Because if he's fighting with Tim, he's not Jon anymore, just the Archivist. Just a thing to be disposed of.]

I'm not.
On either account.
I'm pointing out there's already been a great deal of pain and suffering inflicted.
Some of it was Elias.
Some of it was just me.
He was pulling the strings, but I did everything he needed me to, to make it possible.

[alwayskayaking]

Why are you doing this?

[compellingstatement]

Because I made a mistake.
I trusted you, and now I've hurt a woman you hurt.
Perhaps even more deeply.
Her name is Gilia St. Loe.
You were the second man she'd ever lain with in her life.
She thought you were sweet, kind.
That you cared for her.

And I broke her, Tim.
On your behalf.
Confronting her with what you told me.
Because I thought she'd hurt you.

[alwayskayaking]

[Wait, Jon was mad at him because of a monster?]

of course you did and of course you take their side and think im lying surprised you even believed me at all

[compellingstatement]

I don't think you're lying.
I think your perception of reality is skewed.
Everyone who isn't human is a Stranger to you.
Those marks run through you like veins now.
Twisting and pulsing with poison.

And I don't need any magic powers to see that.

Please get help, Tim.
Psychiatric help.
You desperately need it.

[alwayskayaking]

[Read.]