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[alwayskayaking]

Duplicity Inbox

You've reached Tim Stoker. I'm out at the moment. Leave me a message and I'll return your call soon.

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[sleight_of_fate]

Honestly? I'm not sure. I wasn't in a good place, back home, I was trying to fix all the mistakes I made but I was struggling. Being here gave me direction, a chance to start over without the past weighing me down so much.

There are things I'd like to fix, people I need to make amends with. But I don't know. They say when you go home you don't remember anything that happened here, I think that would make it hard. To lose all the lessons I've learned here, and have to try and start again. I don't know if I could do it.

So i guess its just as well I'm here.

[alwayskayaking]

My advice? Flip a coin. See if you instantly regret the choice it lands on.

The hard part is when you instantly regret both choices it lands on.

[sleight_of_fate]

There is that, it's come in handy a few times.

And sometimes it just comes down to picking the choice that's the least bad. Which really sucks, but...it's the best we can do.

[alwayskayaking]

It really is.

[sleight_of_fate]

I'm glad we got to talk, for what it's worth. It really seems like you're trying, and that things have been good for you. I'm glad.

[alwayskayaking]

[Usually only Sasha is the only one who has ever thought he's actually trying. Everyone else tends to point out where he fails. So the message takes Tim a bit by surprise. In a good way.]

Thank you, that's nice to know that it shows. I swear I am trying. I admit that I'm not perfect, but I am trying.

[sleight_of_fate]

Trying goes a long way, and you sound pretty sincere about it. You're trying to learn, to understand. But from what you've said about your world, I get the fear, too. It's a matter of finding a balance between caution and...mmm, wonder, maybe? There's some awful shit in my world. Scary, scary shit. But there's also some pretty amazing things. And in between, a lot of people like me just trying to live their lives without getting messed with.

But it's a lot. And I'm glad you're doing your best to learn.

[alwayskayaking]

There is no amazing in mine. Just more despair and pain. It's part of the reason the learning curb has been so steep, but I have a good woman to keep encouraging me. [Because he just can't ever praise Sasha enough.] Can't let her down.

[sleight_of_fate]

I get it. There's enough awful shit in my world that I can understand that. Duplicity might be difficult at best, but one thing I appreciate here is that range of experience...there's a lot of terrible shit here, but there's also at least some good. That helps. I mean, here I mostly don't have to worry about being locked in an asylum or murdered for my power? That's an improvement.

She is a good one, from the bit that I know her. I'm glad you have that, too.

[alwayskayaking]

You have no idea how lucky I am to have her here. We lost her back home. I don't care how awful this place is, as long as she's here then I'm glad to stay for as long as we can.

[sleight_of_fate]

Treasure that time. I know what it's like, believe me...every day matters and I'm glad you can have that with her. Even here.

[alwayskayaking]

Trust me. I do, I already know how she can be taken any minute, without any warning. [Or notice. At least here if she vanishes from the city he'll know she's gone. She won't be replaced by something else.]

[sleight_of_fate]

Good. It's not easy, but some people are just once in a lifetime. And most of us never get that second chance.

[alwayskayaking]

I don't know what I did to deserve that second chance, but I'm glad for it.

[sleight_of_fate]

And you sincerely appreciate it...that's good. That's important.

I'm glad for you guys, I really am.

[alwayskayaking]

Thank you.